Posted by Deneb on September 20, 2005, at 18:40:50
In reply to Deneb, is today the day of your appointment?, posted by Tamar on September 20, 2005, at 7:22:48
I wasn't really ready to see this p-doc today. I didn't have enough time to compose myself and make that list I had wanted.
I was going to make that list of things to say while eating "lunch" (breakfast really), but I ran into a friend on the bus and we decided to sit together while I ate.
I didn't have time to compose myself. I think I waited like half an hour to be seen and it was just pure torture! The more I waited, the more anxious I got! I almost had a freaking panic attack! Needless to say, I don't think this helped me compose myself during the visit.
He seemed like a pretty jolly guy, he didn't seem to make a big deal of anything I was saying. I don't think I did very well though...I was kind of all over the place...a little incoherent, rambling at times. :-(
I think he thinks things are more serious than they really are because he heard a lot of negative things in a short period of time. My other p-doc was given a lot of time to take in this negative information over a longer period of time and she was able to get used to it and not be alarmed.
I'm kind of a little upset/annoyed/dazed. I don't think he's like my p-doc at all. My p-doc used to teach me things. This p-doc, get this...gave me a script for 0.5 mg RISPERDAL!!! Aaaah! I think maybe I made a very bad impression by not being composed and coherent enough and now he thinks I'm nuts. :-(
I seriously don't know what to do...
I don't know whether or not I should try this risperdal.
I think maybe I'm kind of afraid that if it works that means that I really am crazy. :-(I think I don't really believe there can be anything wrong with me.
Deneb
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