Posted by Susan47 on April 27, 2005, at 8:21:15
It felt like I wandered through a netherworld of loneliness all night. I was searching for a home. I was with two men. one of them was carrying me on his back. At one point he was on his knees with me, I said, "Don't your knees hurt?". I wanted to walk myself but I couldn't, for some reason, it was dangerous for me to walk.
We wandered through forests, on back roads, looking for my home. We didn't find it. We ended up in a threatening place, it was a holiday type resort, but we were trying to avoid someone, woke up feeling very very hopeless and alone. Phoned the ex-T's machine three times just to hear his voice. I thought I was getting over him, maybe I am, I thought I was getting strong, maybe I am. But these dreams, they suck life away, out of me, when you're alone and there's nothing in your head but your dream, it's terrible.
poster:Susan47
thread:490260
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