Posted by alesta on September 13, 2004, at 0:09:02 [reposted on September 13, 2004, at 15:51:06 | original URL]
i'm at a point where it just seems like nothing means anything...it's depressing..all the things we strive for..to look good, to be noticed, to be smart, to do things well..they add up to nothing..they mean nothing..what is the point?
i'm in a relationship with a guy who doesn't give a damn about me(he's a misogynist)..sometimes i just wish there was a way to have something real..maybe if i was in a relationship based on love i would feel differently..but is that even possible..it seems like superficial appearances or personality or whatever get in the way of true, authentic love..it's not real..and then if you do have true, authentic love, would it just be boring? so you can't win..i don't know..i'm just not feeling that great about life right now..
i have no family anymore so i can't remember how meaningful that is..if at all..this post may seem strange to some of you..i'm unfortunately in a strange place right now..any responses at all appreciated..:)maybe i'm just depressed, but i doubt it..it's hard living with eyes wide open...amy:)
poster:alesta
thread:390371
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