Posted by partlycloudy on September 8, 2004, at 7:01:51
In reply to Hurricane rebound depression?, posted by partlycloudy on September 8, 2004, at 5:48:16
How is it that I have been getting better consistently over the last year and now I feel like I am right back where I started. Full of doubts, fears, second guessing myself. Definitely NOT deputy material, I should not even consider anything that responsible while I'm so deep in this muck. I'm supposed to see my T this afternoon and I don't even want to see her. I'm so disappointed in myself. Can't stick with anything I start. Not exercise, not abstinence from alcohol, not writing a journal, not doing a hobby. My only specialty is how to stay put on a sofa for hours on end, but I haven't seen that job advertised anywhere. I can take setbacks but this feels like a complete reversal, or I've made a circuit and now I'm back where I started. That's impossible, isn't it? Haven't I gone through all these revelations this last year? Been on countless medication changes and found the "perfect" mix. Fed up with having to take pills to feel remotely normal. Fed up with a body that can't decide if it's menopausal or not, with migraine headaches so severe and frequent I can't get the prescription refilled as quickly as I need it. So completely fed up. Where was that rock I crawled out from? I want it back now.
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