Posted by Rainee on May 21, 2004, at 8:33:36
Trying to figure out where to begin. Usually I'm the talker but have really gone inward not even in therapy anymore. Can't seem to find a T I trust and they are all so expensive But I know I have to find one. I'm on meds. mood disorderd. They say BPII but hell that seems so be the flavor of the past few years. I used to be just major depression and anxiety disorder/panic.
anyway, I'm now 42 years old and feel like a failure .. I sit in the house alone all day in my own head bad..place too be. I feel like I let everyone down in my family. Lets just say I feel like a really bad person. I can't seem to find aything to look forward too. My house is a wreck I don't want to clean it. I'm 100 pounds overweight and feel disgusting but can't find the motivation to get it off. I was better years ago and Prozac pooped out now I'm becoming afraid of the world again.. relapses are devastating. well this is just an opener and is hard too do but I have to reach out. thanks Rainee
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