Posted by karen_kay on May 2, 2004, at 19:13:37
In reply to Re: *PLACE HOLDER* » karen_kay, posted by spoc on May 2, 2004, at 17:20:04
can it be? am i so dense that i misread (and reread and then yet again read) the meaning of your post. just when i thought i was making headway into getting you into my bedroom, you slap me in the face. now, i've been turned down before and i'm quite certain it will happen again, but never in such a fashion and never by someone quite as fascinating as i find you spoc. i thought we had it all baby. we had the language, we had charm and boy did we have attitude. and just when things were starting to heat up, you call a seat saver? i'm left wondering what i did wrong. i must admit, i do come on a bit strong. and while this appeal isn't for everyone, i thought for certain it was right up your alley. and many times that i've been rejected, i've been able to snap back with a phrase such as "well, i've been turned down by far better looking people than you." but this time i'm not quite so sure i've been rejected by someone with as much spunk as you. i'm left feeling hurt and wondering if i should try out a new approach. it's usually gotten me pretty far in the past. why change a good thing now? but spoc, why go dumpster diving when you have quite a prize right here? sure, you can go play with your knomes or go shuffling through the archives looking for answers but i assure you i'm just as screwed up as everyone else in the world. i may appear to be quite normal, but that's my facade. and to think, i even told you about my tattoo. and my fear of shopping carts. now that's not information i give out on the first date.
so spoc, i'm still left wondering, "why me?" "what did i do wrong?" "surely it wasn't me." but, as i said before i think too much. and i still wonder if i said something wrong. i thought i had a new friend. i had high hopes. i even purchased a new camera. all for nothing. to have it thrown in my face. perhaps one day i'll recover. i guess i can look on the bright side and say that i have something new to discuss this week in group. but, will anyone really believe me? doubtful. so, i'll have another dx shoved up my butt. and a few weeks of paranoid thoughts and constant self-doubts. and i'll archive you and wonder, "what did i do wrong?" and i'll never fully recover. then, perhaps you'll resurface and want to play, and i'll be giddy and full of joy. and we'll play again and all will be right in the world. and then you'll write another "dear karen" letter, with another seat saver. and i'll have to up my antipsychotics and have more to talk about in group, and noone will believe me yet again. and this cycle will continue until someone learns their lesson. i'm guessing it will be you rather than me. but, i ask is it really worth it? you bet your a$$!!! so, at the risk of sounding needy (or dense if i'm incorrectly absorbing your meaning) "do you really have to go??????" couldn't you just save me some pain and stick around a bit longer? or, at the very least, email me at karen_kay12 at yahoo dot com. from there, i'll give you directions to my house :)
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