Posted by whiterabbit on July 9, 2003, at 23:14:34
In reply to Is it my breath or what? (nm), posted by KellyD on July 9, 2003, at 21:31:14
Kelly-
I'm sort of in the same situation but even worse because my marriage didn't make it through all the craziness. The divorce isn't legal yet but we're moving right along in that direction. I haven't gone back to a "real" job yet, although I work Saturdays and pick up some temp work...not much chance for socializing there.I did try to go back to my regular job after being hospitalized (the first time) but I'd been involuntarily committed after winding up in the ER - so everybody at work found out what happened to me and man, talk about being uncomfortable at your first day back on the job...it was gruesome.
I still could've handled it if I felt better, but I had just been started on a lot of psych meds and I felt confused and ill. Generally I'm pretty tough, always show up for work sick or not, but this time I just couldn't hang.I had one really good friend there and I still see her every once in awhile, but not much...it's not me, she just has a hard job & a bunch of kids.
I have a couple of cousins I'm close to but it's the same deal with them, job & kids...I have a son but he's grown now. My other friends drifted away when I was really really depressed, I was isolating big time, wouldn't go out with them or even talk on the phone. By the time I got home from work I was so "peopled out" I couldn't deal with anyone.So back to your question, what to do now. Actually I need a very moderate amount of 3-D human contact to be happy, although I'm not a complete hermit. The things I enjoy most are solitary pursuits - reading, writing & painting.
But the better I feel, the more I think that it might be nice to get out & socialize for a bit. As of this moment I have NO interest in a romantic-type relationship, and it will probably be a VERY LONG TIME before I can even stomach the idea. So that kind of socializing is out, no meat-markets or blind dates or getting fixed up or any of that (shudder).I guess one of the things that I'll do, once I'm not pennyless, is to learn something new...maybe I can find a yoga class for stiff old beginners.
I do need to learn how to unwind...also I'd like to take a shot at stained glass, see how that suits me, I'm the creative sort. Could maybe meet some other creative people, that would be interesting.Well if I come up with any great ideas I'll let you know!
-Gracie
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