Posted by lostsailor on April 3, 2003, at 14:59:40
In reply to mmcasey also .... » mmcasey, posted by sienna on April 3, 2003, at 14:11:14
I know what you are saying in a very empathetic way.
I am similar in age (33 but don’t tell anyone), was a social worker prior to my "break” and b/c my associates in the field am reluctant to go to a hospital for not only embarrassment but also the stigma that may be the demise of my "career" if I were to choose to/am able to go back to it.In another post I made earlier today to Diana, I think, I explained that my doc and I do what I call "home hospitalization." He's knows the situation that you and I share and the issues both medical and ethical/stigma related to hospitalization. I have seeing him now for about 6 yrs. so there is an excellent repoire that probably plays a role in these "home hops." I am 100% med comp and he knows I wont hesitate to call his cell at 230 am if needed. Actually, I am on "home hop" now and call him or my therapist who has a good working relationship with my doc and eventually when things subside I go to him in person for an eval. /med tune up if ness and release or continued home hop.
Only once in my life have I ever seriously considered suicide and I knew before I called him that he would not allow me to stay home in the shape I was in but did get me into a hospital, sadly where he did not have privileges, but it was needed. What is funny about it though, is that in a matter of days I went from where you are now to loving the hospital. It reminds me still so much of the movie "the Breakfast Club." I still keep in touch with one person from that period.
Please take care. Post us when you need a ear to hear. But if really comes down to it, please go to some hospital even if it is far and you need a ride or a bus to get there.
((()))
~tony
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