Posted by ROO on January 17, 2003, at 14:08:11
In reply to Re: What's it mean to you to feel close to someone?, posted by Ginjoint on January 17, 2003, at 12:43:39
> What's your idea of feeling close, Roo?
I'm not sure...I've been thinking about this question a lot lately...It has a lot to do with trust and security...being able to be myself with
someone...the good, the bad and the ugly...being able to be silly...being
able to be comfortable being silent without having it feel weird....being able
to share my hopes, dreams and fears without feeling judged....being able to feel
somewhat relaxed and at ease....being able to laugh and understand each other's humor....I haven't felt close to anyone for a long time, and haven't LET myself. For the past year
or so, I've shut a lot of people out of my life. It's kind of scaring me how I've forgotten
how to be close to people and how I won't let myself be. I think I've become really full of shame
because I've fallen into such a depression. I project my own self judgement over this onto others and
expect that they will judge me as harshly as I do myself or something. Lots of shame.
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