Posted by Dinah on January 16, 2003, at 17:19:38
In reply to Re: SI and suicidal ideation and me » Dinah, posted by Noa on January 16, 2003, at 16:53:29
Thanks for understanding, Nikki.
And yes, Noa, I do have a support system in place, and Babble is part of it, while my poor therapist shoulders the lion's share. For me, keeping it quiet is toxic, but I do keep it quiet in most arenas. My husband usually knows nothing about any of it, and certainly my son doesn't. It's amazing how normal I can look while I'm obsessing - a bit distracted perhaps. And of course the worst of it comes in the middle of the night.
I think one of the reasons SSRI's increased the cutting is that "oh well, whatever" effect they had. Fighting the urges didn't seem worth it. I have read (I think somewhere on Babble) that SSRI's have a disinhibiting effect. But I had the odd feeling that it just took more to get my attention on SSRI's. "HEY YOU!!! SOMETHING'S WRONG!!!" had to take a more extreme form.
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