Posted by justyourlaugh on January 16, 2003, at 10:39:50
In reply to Re: SI and suicidal ideation and me, posted by Dinah on January 16, 2003, at 9:47:57
dinah,
hi friend-
you are not alone-
however
i had a great childhood,and now i have everyting that alot of people dream of.
i use to si to ground me and keep me focused i thought because nothing was wrong.
now i fall into its trap from time to time-pdoc says to punish myself?
but he is aware si isjust a small part of my mental state and not talked about much at all.
i want death from time to time not from depression but the opposite.and when i am in this state i have no kids..
i think there are more people on this board that
si in many forms-over eating-drinking-not eating enough and so on....
up until 4 years ago(i am 33)i honestly thought that what i did with a knife was unheard of-
i was hospitalized 2 times as ateen for it(went too deep)and they just (docs and parents)just calld me a drunk.i started si at age 10-started drinking at age16?
i wish i was educated about it at the time-i am sure it would have help me believe i was still a good girl....
jyl
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