Posted by mikhail99 on December 23, 2002, at 19:57:39
In reply to Worried, posted by daizy on December 23, 2002, at 15:34:50
> This will be my first christmas with depression, or whatever it is Ive got, and I can tell that everyone is uncomfortable around me. My mother doesnt know how to cope with my mood changes and my anger, so now she treats me like a child, also buys me things I dont want to try and make me happy, and gets upset when im not, which I feel very guilty about. I live at home and its just me and her, she is very intrusive (because of my eating disorder) I feel like I have no privacy. My brother and sister are also back for the hols. They keep pressurising me to go out with them. However I dont go out anywhere anymore and people are saying "are you agoraphobic or something?!" as if its a joke. I know an alcoholic and she's worse at christmas, but its really affecting me and I dont know how to tell her, she wont even admit she has a problem which angers me soooooo much. Im becoming increasingly paranoid and angry, and dont have a way to let it out which scares me. Im becoming distant even from myself, like im doing things I dont want to and thinking things that are totally weird. Am having more and more panic attacks also. Basically Im a wreck. I know I dont have any control over myself (because if I did I wouldnt be like this) and Im worried about what im going to do next....... does anyone have any help?
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> ps: Mr Cushing, your advise is needed!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish someone could explain to me why families have to be so freaky when a loved one is having trouble????? It makes me nuts.Do you think it would help if you sat them all down and told them that you just aren't feeling well and when they pretend nothing's wrong, it makes you feel worse? Tell them you're trying to figure all of this out and instead of being intrusive or annoying, they could ask you from time to time what you need.
And just a thought, my outlet for anger is exercise which isn't always healthy but sometimes it's better than screaming at someone. Next time they're being clueless, try taking a walk? I hope that doesn't sound lame but it might help, at least temporarily. And Mr. Cushing was right, you do need to look into some help with this stuff. Medication isn't always the answer but it's saved a lot of lives!
Take care of yourself!
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