Posted by daizy on December 23, 2002, at 15:34:50
This will be my first christmas with depression, or whatever it is Ive got, and I can tell that everyone is uncomfortable around me. My mother doesnt know how to cope with my mood changes and my anger, so now she treats me like a child, also buys me things I dont want to try and make me happy, and gets upset when im not, which I feel very guilty about. I live at home and its just me and her, she is very intrusive (because of my eating disorder) I feel like I have no privacy. My brother and sister are also back for the hols. They keep pressurising me to go out with them. However I dont go out anywhere anymore and people are saying "are you agoraphobic or something?!" as if its a joke. I know an alcoholic and she's worse at christmas, but its really affecting me and I dont know how to tell her, she wont even admit she has a problem which angers me soooooo much. Im becoming increasingly paranoid and angry, and dont have a way to let it out which scares me. Im becoming distant even from myself, like im doing things I dont want to and thinking things that are totally weird. Am having more and more panic attacks also. Basically Im a wreck. I know I dont have any control over myself (because if I did I wouldnt be like this) and Im worried about what im going to do next....... does anyone have any help?
ps: Mr Cushing, your advise is needed!!!!!!!!!!!
poster:daizy
thread:33850
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