Posted by Rach on December 18, 2002, at 9:14:14
Does anyone else do this?
I get to such a great point in my life. Everything seems to be coming together. Lots of great opportunities, etc... Then I start to sabotage things for myself.
It may not start as a conscious thing. I try to trick myself by saying I'm doing it for the best, that this job wasn't right for me, that I had a miagraine starting so it was understandable for me to miss that meeting...
Yesterday, I breezed through this job interview. I almost panicked in the waiting room, but then was brilliant in the interview. Got a call 2hrs later asking me to come back this morning for the 2nd interview. I was so excited. I really wanted the job, and I really NEED the job.
Got up this morning, then found myself thinking that I wouldn't go for the 2nd interview. Called, left a message saying I had accepted another job (lie), then went back to bed, telling myself that it was okay because I might have to quit the job in a couple of months if I decide to go back to uni.
Why do I do this? I still think the job would have be suitable, enjoyable, and I really liked the people. I really need the money.
I just don't understand...
poster:Rach
thread:33551
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