Posted by Roo on August 7, 2002, at 9:57:47
Gabbi--
Hey, how are you? Sorry I never wrote back to your
last response to my last post, I think I was feeling
overwhelmed and funky (and I don't mean in a good way).I was thinking that you ought to be a writer. Or are
you already? Do you do creative writing? I loved one of
your sentences in an earlier post about feeling alone and how
it feels like "a drawstring in the stomach". that's so perfect.
someday if I ever write the great novel, I might have to steal that.I started this job at Duke's Center for Documentary Studies (part time)
transcribing interviews for this chicks research project. It's very
interesting. All these recovering drug addicts who have been in prison
getting their lives together. It's really inspiring. I get totally into
thesse people. It's like listening to books on tape or something and getting
really immersed in a character...I go home thinking about them, wonder what
they look like, etc.I'm thinking of taking some classes in documentary studies to see
if it interests me...I'm still depressed as hell. It seems pretty unrelenting, and I'm still
just pissed off at it. I really thought it was something that was supposed
to improve with time and age, not get worse. I'm disappointed. Like you
said in some earlier post--it's pretty ego flattening. But maybe there's some
spiritual element in that ego flattening too. Maybe at some point, you just
learn to surrender. Maybe you don't even learn, you just have no choice. Shit,
there's got to be something good about it, doesn't there? Some sort of gift buried
in the shit.I'm trying to decide whether to spend all my money taking
creative classes that interest me and inspire me, or try
acupuncture. I can't afford both. I've only had one
acupuncture session so far, and it didn't do much, but i'm
sure it's one of those things that takes time. I don't know.Anyway, tell me about what's been floating around in your
mind, if you feel like it.Emotionally Promiscuous,
Ruth
poster:Roo
thread:28229
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