Posted by shar on August 1, 2002, at 0:52:38
In reply to Failure that I am, posted by ensoul on July 31, 2002, at 18:40:23
Man, you are in a hard, hard situation. Especially with the past trauma (losing friends, grandmother, grandson) adding on top of everything. I am very, very impressed with how strong you are, and truly sympathize with you. I do not know how you manage to deal with so many major stressors.
I know you may not feel very strong (maybe more like you are hanging on by your fingertips or holding on that last inch of rope), but you ought to see it from my perspective. You have some kind of core, or spark, or will, or something that enables you to carry on in the midst of all the pain and loss and debilitating depression. Wow. What is that?
I admire your guts. This is ironic, but you are one of the few people I can look at as a role model, because I can SEE how hard your life is, and you are still moving forward. I want to be able to do that. I want some of whatever that is.
I know that my thoughts are probably always going to be desolate, and my life will feel empty, and I want to not do myself in unless it is the worst of the worst. So, I don't expect cheery fun, but I do want to know how to go on. You have it so much harder than I do, what is it that keeps you moving ahead?
Shar
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