Posted by ShelliR on July 3, 2002, at 11:56:45
In reply to Re: I can relate » Roo, posted by tabitha on July 3, 2002, at 8:00:48
It's so strange that we all feel this way. Not only do we feel the depression, but shame and guilt about it. And Roo, you are right: if we had migraines or any other illness, we would not feel the guilt. We might feel disappointment that we had to give up some things in our lives, but without the shame and that sense of failure that goes with depression. I had to take off almost two months because of depression this year, and I wouldn't in any way tell clients what kind of illness I had, even people that I've known for years and feel close to. It was very akward, uncomfortable.
I don't have an answer, just to be as gentle with yourself as possible. Plus 34 still gives you lots of time left to pursue your dreams (although it's hard to see that now). I changed professions when I was in my early thirties. To something which I previously had absolutely *no* idea that I had an interest and talent in. And that was after receiving disability because a 9-5 job contributed so much to my feelinsg of depression. So who knew that three years later I would own my own business. (certainly not me.)
Anyway, I'm not suggesting that you change professions. I just wanted to remind you that very good things will happen in your life that you have no idea exist now when you are in the depths of depression--people you haven't even met yet, etc.
And you *will* overcome this depression and move on, with plenty of time.Shelli
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