Posted by ST on June 22, 2002, at 3:45:11
In reply to Re: Guilt about looking at gory images. Am I awful? » PhoenixGirl, posted by adamie on June 21, 2002, at 22:42:57
Hi PG,You're not a bad person. You're a human being and you have traits, desires, feelings, curiosities and tics that human beings have. It would be wonderful for you to embrace all your humanness without judgement. And simply because you worry and wonder about whether you are a bad person means you have a conscience. Good people have a conscience. And the hell with "good" and "bad" - they are absolutes that no one really can adhere to anyway.
I used to be wracked with thoughts that I was a bad person. I was always guilty. I would worry and wonder whether certain people had figured out that I was a bad person yet...I used to worry about being "found out"! I now do not feel that way and I'm not sure exactly how and when these thoughts subsided. I know it had a lot had to do with getting on the right meds and my obsessive thoughts decreased. I now am very accepting of myself and through getting to know a lot of different people and being curious as to how peole tick, I now know that I am not a "bad" person. But I really, really, really thought I was a bad person. I had guilt constantly.
I don't know how old you are, what your life experiences are, your relationship and family history, etc., but I do think with time these thoughts decrease.
Sarah
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