Posted by BarbaraCat on June 13, 2002, at 1:46:49
In reply to Re: Not to break up the party, but. . . » BarbaraCat, posted by oona on June 12, 2002, at 22:50:45
Hi Oona,
Yes, that was me re the belly dance classes. They'll start in September. Meanwhile I'm putting it together and Jeeze Louise and pray God, hopefully getting my body and brain together in the process. I've put on 30 pounds with the Remeron and Lithium since September and that was on top of being a bit pudgy and out of shape (and SICK with fibromyalgia) to start with - and like you, I also have a hypothyroid condition. My worst fear looks something like the dancing Hippo from Fantasia doing shimmies wearing a coin hip belt.But I LOVE b-dance. It is my passion and my joy. Not the nightclub cabaret style, no this is more strong wild desert woman style and it wakens and fills my soul with rapture. It's the first thing I started doing again after getting my sanity back this past winter. I'd love to get a group of women together and create something amazing. This is a major facing up to myself, let me tell you. Getting healthy and strong again, building self confidence, confronting my fears of age, possible ostracism from right-wing small-town folk (ohmygod, that's Middle East and probably sleazy too!). You know, all the "I'm a fool and basically unloveable" stuff. But dammit, it's about time I start having fun and following my bliss! I don't presume I'll make enough money to even pay the phone bill, but who knows? Maybe you'll read about me in Oprah or something - stranger things have happened.
Whoever has a job they truly love and are getting enought money is very blessed and fortunate indeed. Too few of us are in that lucky position and in my opinion it's one of the main reasons we're having all these health problems and mood disorders. All this life force and creative juice and no fulfilling place to use it. It jams up and turns into anxiety and depression. Perhaps just having enough time and energy left over after doing our unfulfilling jobs has to be good enough. What kind of craft expertise would be your dream come true? It sounds to me like you possibly have something in mind? - Barbara
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