Posted by ELA on March 19, 2002, at 4:38:34
...and it still doesn't really help afterwards. I think I do it to give myself something "real" to hurt about. I keep being told by my parents especially that there's nothing wrong now, I've got to start being positive and simply pull myself together and get into the real world. If only...
My dad actually said to me last night on the way home from therapy that he thinks it's all namby pamby bollocks and that I'm "just milking it now". How nice of him. Feel pretty damn SHIT today now having spent much of last night slashing my wrists and arms again, across the scars from before when I really went for it. They hurt a hell of a lot this morning actually.
I would love to be able to just snap out of it and get on with my life but everything I try and do is met with disdain and utter contempt from my parents, particualarly dad. They're a nightmare, I can't stand them anymore.
Whoever invented my life is a complete and utter bastard. I'm so fed up with all of this. Getting back to wishing that my suicide attempt had actually worked because I'm sick of trying to get through this on my own now.
Emma.
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