Posted by Dinah on December 14, 2001, at 8:50:54
In reply to Re: akc - How are you doing? » Dinah, posted by akc on December 14, 2001, at 7:52:32
akc,
Good for you!!! It is important to feel we are in control of our fates. If you can feel safe outside the hospital, you have every right to fight to stay out. My last blowup with my previous pdoc was over him threatening me with the hospital over my very minor cutting. I've blocked out most of the experience, but his last mocking words are sketched in my memory "Oh, I've upset you now. What are you going to do - go and cut yourself?" Those ugly words are the last ones I ever heard from him because I summoned up my self respect and quit.
You're right about finding a brand new doctor and not transferring your records. I transferred my records to my next pdoc and in our first session he suggested that my social troubles in middle school might have been caused by mild schizophrenic tendencies the other kids picked up and he suggested an antipsychotic. I was terrified and upset and managed to pick a fight with him and quit. Then it occurred to me that he had probably been influenced by the horrible pdoc's records.
I didn't have my records transferred to my third pdoc. After I had seen him for a year, I summoned up the courage to tell him what the second pdoc said. Without actually insulting a fellow doctor, he managed to convey his opinion that such a conclusion was ridiculous. He totally (well almost) banished my fears.
I don't mean to bore you with my story. I just want to let you know that, based on my experience, you are making a very wise choice.
If you feel you must engage in harmful activities, at least try to stay safe. That will validate your therapist's support of you. And everyone who cares about you wants to see you stay safe.
Dinah
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