Posted by wendy b. on December 13, 2001, at 15:17:25
In reply to Why oh why do I do the things I do?, posted by Dinah on December 13, 2001, at 10:54:49
I agree with Roo, it's no big stretch to compare the issues with this therapist to the childhood situation with your neglectful mother. You made the connection, that makes it viable... You've got to trust your instincts.
It's hard to imagine a mother could do this, at least in the year 2001 it is. What were you supposed to do if it rained or snowed? Or if there were a kid-molester hanging around? It happens, and it happened when you were a kid, too, bad people seeking out wandering children. The schools today would never allow a kid to wait for a parent all alone on the playground, too many liability issues. So she left you alone and wondering if she'd come or not, and this was upsetting. I can only think of you as this poor little girl at 3:20 or so, knowing it would be hours till she came, it's heartbreaking... I would give her a big hug and gently stroke her hair and tell her it's alright, if I could right now.
I think I have to agree with the others about a therapist change. If he cannot say when he'll be available, he's not worth your time. Value yourself and your own worthiness. You have your own schedule to keep, and that's important too... As for your post on being "odd," you are one of my favorite people to read, you always make good sense, and you are always supportive. A very good person, not "odd," sheesh, being an interesting and intelligent person shouldn't be a crime, should it?
I hope your attachment to the therapist can get worked on with the new one, as Roo suggests. And keep posting, it will keep you out of the closet (even though I know you like it in there), and not cutting.
Take care,
Wendy
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