Posted by kid_A on November 26, 2001, at 12:16:11
In reply to vino and madness (a soberly written thread), posted by sar on November 26, 2001, at 10:39:40
a few months ago, maybe a few month ago, when i was still desperately in love with someone who i later found to be the captainess of my doomed ship of love, doomed somewhere towards the devil's triangle, we were walking in the street and she was having a fight w/ her ex and i was trying desperately for her to talk to me but she walked away from me with other friends that i knew... as i walked to her, i kicked the door of the parking garage as hard as i could... when we were walking she said "i just want someone to love me completely"... something i could of done, but remember, this is doomed love, so in doomed love there is naught but heartbreak and tears and mortigi tempo... this gigantic guy said something to the effect like "ill do that", and i shouted at him in the loudest fuckoff voice i could muster to "SHUT THE FUCK UP"... something which could have earned me a considerable beating... they all said i didnt mean it, and he seemed to be pretty jovial about it but it could have turned out all wrong...the problem is that i have anger issues, i broke a phone over the same girl, i cracked my head in a mirror, over the same girl... i hurt myself over the same girl...
i just try to watch out for myself the next time around... i cant always control the fact that im angry, that im enraged that im in a situation that im in, that i could possibly be more desperately in need of attention from someone that it is doomed to be gotten...
but time heals everything and as per usual, after everything, after every little change and unrequital, after it all i dont feel anything, and not feeling anything is better than anger, its better than sorrow, and its better than falling in love with a doomed siren...
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