Posted by Dinah on November 13, 2001, at 17:19:22
> I, too, "use" dissociation to zone out and numb myself from my feelings. But it is different from true dissociation where you lose awareness of yourself, who you are, where you are, etc. But sometimes I am amazed at how much time can pass when I am in this zoned out state.
Hi Noa,
Actually, as I was searching through the archives, I saw where this was discussed before. I think my experience with dissociation sounds quite similar to what you and Anita described in the previous thread.
It's definitely not DID, and there is absolutely no amnesia or fugue or anything. However, I have no coherent sense of who I am.
I do think of my emotional side as "her" and my thinking self as "me." I don't understand what "she" is thinking or doing at all. I think it's just a form of short hand that reflects the total alienation between the two parts of myself. Just as an example, "she" is very dependent on and attached to my therapist as a source of safety. I'm not and don't understand or trust the attachment.
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