Posted by Greg A. on October 29, 2001, at 20:19:56
In reply to some questions for greg, posted by juliedealer on October 29, 2001, at 19:05:28
Julie, I am 49. I have been treated for depression for about 15 years or so. The first ten years I was adamant that I was not depressed, only anxious.
Here's an anxious day in the life for you. Awake with feeling of tightness in chest. Keep taking deep breaths to try to get rid of feeling. Only confirms that it is still there. Go to work. Try to avoid people. Hard when you are a public servant. Don't want phone to ring. Deal with things as best I can. Make it through work day. Enjoy nothing. Only reason to look forward to the end of the day is it's closer to the time I can drink and try to put a damper on the anxiety. Get some exercise - token effort to compensate for drinking. Have dinner with family. Say little. Act irritable. Watch TV. Drink. Drink enough to start to think I am okay. Go to bed. Get up next a.m. with slight hangover and tightness in chest. Repeat ad nauseum.Greg.
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