Posted by kid_A on August 13, 2001, at 18:37:47
In reply to Re: sar is okay » kid_A, posted by sar on August 13, 2001, at 14:30:16
sar sar sar,
my problem is i can't stay at home, i feel like any night i miss out of sheer stoicism is gone forever and i may die and not have lived my life to its fullest... i do put limits to my nights out, a few nights during the week, and then on weekends, i guess you could say i do go out more than i dont...
if by chaotic you mean wanton abandon w/ no regard for safety, most are not as bad as me, but there isnt a designated driver amoungst us... i work at a bar, which is never sane if you are overly fond of the drink, and i am sort of wild there... i have encouragement (for my wildness) which is good or bad depending on how you look at it...
as for myself, i do believe i have a little star shining above me... and it laughed its warmth on me on the way home from radiohead (which was utterly amazing by the way), on the way home i hydroplaned and did 2 360's in the middle of the highway, on comming traffic barely missed me and i powerslid into a ditch... i was so upset, not at almost having been killed, but because one, i had made the mistake of trying to pass a semi truck in the rain (phobia #1), and two that i had let myself hydroplane into a near crash (phobia #2).... everyone in the car and the car itself came out unscathed... maybe im destined to go on to do great things, maybe im here to love someone as they have never been loved... i just feel that i was saved...
im glad that nobody was hurt in your accident, im certainly glad that nobody was hurt in mine...
the kid A album is amazing, as is Amnesiac, its sister album (recorded at the same time), atmospheric and moody like ok computer, but taken more extreme than even ok computer was... i listen to ok computer every time i go to see my pdoc... its kind of a ritual i have...
janis joplin was talented, i can say that, i have never been a big fan though, im thinking of sunflower sutra by allen ginsberg, read it, its amazingly great... its beat writing at its finest, it celebrates the downtrodden...
as for ambien and alcohol, my guardian definitely has kicked my ass into remembering that this is a combination that wont work for cognative memories of the nights events... i on average take about .75 to 1.00mg of xanax a day, generally when i drink though i am pretty crazy, perhaps its due to all the drugs floating around in me at any given time... thankfully the 'rage' period which started when i first began effexor is over... im not a mean drunk anymore... (though i certainly was a bit of a jerk on my ambien night i was told...)
monday evening now in the not so south but southernmost east coast state, ill be going into work tonight at the bar so since my boss isnt in tommorow i probably wont be too carefull about drinking too much... the good thing is that i had the foresight to move into a neighborhood a few blocks from downtown where i could (and have) crawl home to...
i love the cool weather, i hate the heat, the heat and the humidity is opressive its like 5 to 10 more atmospheres just beating on you for all its worth... theres nothing like the sharp crisp air of the colder seasons, with just a hint of chimney smoke in the wind... its a beautiful thing...
stay pure, stay golden, stay guarded
k_A
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