Posted by Willow on August 4, 2001, at 20:42:05
In reply to Repairing the Damage, posted by AKC on August 4, 2001, at 20:30:38
> And then tonight -- while not depressed, I'm in the mood -- so my brain, so pre-wired for destruction is going down that path - self-destructive thoughts are bombarding me left and right. I'm clear-headed enough to know them for what they are. But I have no one to share them with. No one to help me through this. I am so frigging alone. I am going nuts. I so want to go in the hospital at times like this just to not be alone. But they would mess with my meds -- and that can't be allowed -- we are getting close, I believe that. So I have to tough it out -- but I can't keep toughing it out. It is too tiring.
AKC
When I feel similar to what you describe it usually happens after a stressful event. I think it is just plain anxiety. I don't have a cure, but knowing it will pass helps me.Sorry I can't be much more help! Know that I'm here even if I'm not posting, ramble on if it helps. (Sorta like a good cry!) Your post "A friend pulls away" I could relate to in a different perspective. (I guess I was just being too needy.)
A month ago I went through a really rough time and survived. I'm leading to a downer mode, but suspect that you could use some cheering so off with me into my corner.
Chin up ...
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