Posted by tina on July 4, 2001, at 9:05:00
When does one know when it is time to give up?
My family has always said I give up too easily but I've been dealing with and fighting this anxiety and depression for 12 years. Should I give up now? I'm just so tired of it. The panic attacks are coming more frequently and at a higher intensity, I'm having strange images flashing into my mind accompanied by violent thoughts of self-mutilation and death, the depression is a dark cloud barring my way into or out of everything and I can't leave my house without extreme fear and discomfort.
The meds I take don't work anymore. I've been taking them for nearly 7 months.
Can I give up now? Have I tried enough?
I want to be normal. I want to live without fear, without pain. I can't stand this weakness and cowardice anymore but I can't stop it either. How do I go on fighting? Is there a point to it? Maybe it will never get better? And if it does, will it last or will I be right back here in the black hole yet again?
poster:tina
thread:7060
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