Posted by yo-wazzzup on June 28, 2001, at 17:12:15
In reply to I feel invisible, posted by tina on June 27, 2001, at 13:48:40
'ADD-A-TUDE'
She was dealt a rough hand from the start...
Confused emotions, pre-coceived notions, life wasn't so sweet
Kaotic days, sleepless nights, future so bleak
A journey to take
Footprints to make
Cautiously, she proceeded
Faced with tribulations, she refused to be defeatedWho was she? Where was she? At times she didn't know
Day by day, down the unbeaten path she did go
One step forward, three back
A will to survive keeps her on track
A stumble, sometimes a fall
When she couldn't get up, she tried to crawlSecluded, she discovered other women ventured the road less travelled too
Caring direction & hopeful insite filtered through
SOMETHING INSIDE HER KEPT INSISTING LIFE WAS FOR LIVING, NOT MERELY EXISTING
Bit by bit her strength grew
Precise destiny,she never knewShe dreamt of passion iin all she did
Behind the scars & hurt she often hid
Abuse murders ones soul, fortunately every dusk has it's dawn
Her spirit returned, once she took control & moved on
One day in her deepest pain
She reviewed her journey & what she had gainedShe'll never forget...but her losses have subsided
No longer dominant, her trials & experiences became tools provided
A mirror image, her life's goal
All the fragments came together completing a whole
A future empowered & knowledge to impart, life consists of 10% what comes her way & 90% reaction, she realized that day
She'd completed her journey to heart...
I wrote that four or five years ago when I was in denial. I've never dealt with any of my issues to any extent. I'm the queen of de'nile (recently admitted it wasn't only a river in egypt). I don't need therapy-that's for weak individuals.HAHAHA Boy, was I walkin' around dazes & confused. I've been abused so many times I've lost count. Part of it is a learned behavior. Part is my desire to prove there is good in people. Nieve? maybe?!? I tend to believe it's a type of self destructive behavior. IF SOMEONE HURTS YOU ONCE - SHAME ON THEM!IF SOMEONE HURTS YOU TWICE - SHAME ON YOU!!!(advice I give but never follow) Used, taken advantage of...etc. PICK ME, PICK ME!!! There are some nasty indiviuals out there. I dish out awesome advice, trouble is, I'm crappy @ following it. (do as I say, not as I do) You are not alone. You arn't the first to have those feelings & you certainly won't be the last. I'd lay bets on that.> I just get disappointed and hurt if I open my heart and yet I still keep doing it and getting hurt over and over. How dumb can one person be?
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