Posted by Pari on April 14, 2001, at 1:54:59
In reply to Re: Mirror anxiety -- Dissociation?, posted by mila on April 13, 2001, at 1:00:37
Mila, Thank you for the encouragement. I know the effect suicide has on families as my aunt and uncle both committed suicide within a year of each other and left their tree teenage kids behind. Those three cousins are all older than me and have helped me understand depression and bipolar disorder, especially when I first began to experience it. So of course I don't want to put my family through that again (I am single but relatives live close) yet I don't want guilt to be the reason I live for them. Don't get me wrong, I consider myself so very lucky to have family and a few friends who care, but somehow that also leaves me feeling trapped because if I didn't have their feelings to consider, I could choose to live or die based on what I want rather than on what causes others the least pain. Tonight I choose life.
Pari
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