Posted by Kingfish on April 11, 2001, at 16:06:39
In reply to Re: discovering who you are after years of suffering, posted by phillybob on April 10, 2001, at 0:25:32
>Phillybob:
And just how did you know I was a woman? :) That's interesting that you thought I was a man on the other thread. I believe I think more like one most of the time for some reason, am very analytical (am I going to get into trouble for saying that?).
My main mood stabilizer is Topamax, 250 mg. I also Neurontin, which I know isn't considered a main line stabilizer but my pdoc says it acts in conjunction as a stabilizer with other another stabilizer. I also take Celexa.
Anyhoo, I actually have been able to get by during this illness, also by "[honing] my acting skills in duping friends and family, to boot". Almost all of my friends were shocked when I talked to them about it for the first time.
But the main problem I'm having right now is related to a very serious relationship (O.K., a marriage) of the last nine years. I'm looking back at it now and realizing it has been very dysfunctional.
A far less "rebellious me is emerging. It's as if I woke up and said "this isn't my life. I've been following someone around for nine years." And there's hardly reflection of me around.
My confidence level is so much better now. I don't feel like being self-destructive...
I guess there's far too much to put here. :)
Thank for the self-help book suggestion, Phillybob, though, I avoid them like the plague.;) I do feel like I need to speak with someone who has been through this.
And thank you all for your support! Any more support and/or stories would be greatly appreciated.
- K.
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