Posted by Annabelle Smith on April 16, 2011, at 15:45:55
In reply to Re: Agony, posted by Daisym on April 16, 2011, at 12:49:57
I don't know if I can undo the decision or not. I kind of doubt it. I could wait until Monday and try then.
Thanks for your help and all that you had to say.
I really don't know what to do in this moment. I have never felt like this before-- stuck in the final moments of such a huge decision, where I feel like either way I go, there is a deadness of the self and life waiting.
My body feels like a corpse right now. It literally take an immense amount of effort to even type these words. But, my final term is nearing the final stretch, and I have 2 huge papers due in less than 2 weeks, and 2 presentations and one test next week. I have prepared for none of these. I can't. I can't make it through.
I am supposed to meet with my therapist at 8am on Monday. I don't know how to make it that long.
If I need help, I don't know where to go for it on the weekend. The weekend is the loneliest, most difficult time for me. During the week, I could call my therapist or visit the psych and counseling center. But now, there is nowhere to go. If it gets to a certain point, I don't know if the hospital has crisis workers in the er that can talk. But then, I don't know if there is a charge for this. I have almost no money, and I want all of this to remain private and not go on my record.
At the moment, I have no idea.
poster:Annabelle Smith
thread:983016
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