Posted by alexandra_k on April 14, 2011, at 7:06:57
In reply to Re: Starting to feel anxious and adrift » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on April 11, 2011, at 8:12:09
I think people need something that makes them feel good. Pretty reliably good. It is different for different people. Therapy has played that role in my life. Having a relationship with my therapist. Philosophy has played that role in my life. Reading that and talking to people about philosophical ideas. Now... The thing that does that for me is lifting.
I don't know about philosophy... I know I need to remain financially viable lol. Ideally have more money than I do now as my present living circumstances are only viable because I am a grad student... I always thought I wanted a vocation. My work to be something that I was passionate about. Now I'm fairly attracted to the idea of work being something palatable that means I'm financially viable so that in my leisure time I can engage in my passion - to lift!
So I dunno... I started functions work about a month ago (catering, basically). Hours on my feet. Not terribly many - about 2 shifts of 3-5 hours per week. It is hard going for me on my feet, though. Would I be alright doing that work full time in order to support my lifting? Guess I'd like a bit more money than that... Not sure my feet are up to it... It is a bit physical and would interfere with my lifting... Starting to get back into my writing, though, as my body adapts to the demands.
Also doing tutoring work (teaching and grading). Less hours (on paper, anyway). Pays considerably more. Considerably. It stresses me out mentally in a way that the functions work doesn't, though. I... Enjoy the functions work more, I guess. Grade three papers or carry round plates of food / drink? No brainer...
Dunno. Can try and hit the civil service here (pays well, flexible hours, seems to be the done thing). I... I'm not sure about philosophy anymore since I'm not passionate about it most of the time... Since I'm not sure about the people and the ideas anymore...
Lifting won't provide me a living. I have no natural ability or talent. But I look forward to it the way I used to look forward to therapy. I look forward to learning how to lift better the way I used to enjoy learning about psychology and philosophy. I already am injured / the walking wounded lol. I wake up in the morning and lifting gets me out of bed. I get through the grind of the day because I want to lift that evening.
In a couple years I might be good enough to hit the Masters Games. :-)
It really is the funnest thing in the world.
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