Posted by alexandra_k on April 11, 2011, at 6:33:56
In reply to Re: Starting to feel anxious and adrift, posted by Tabitha on April 11, 2011, at 3:40:09
i think you do got a better therapist inside of you than he was. he was probably a really important part of your journey to get that inner therapist. other peoples, too.
i don't reckon you will lose touch or contact with the emotional part of you. you got your inner therapist now, and that will make it safe for you to keep in touch.
i think i understand a little bit about the anxious and adrift...
i... see my therapist. sometimes. mostly not. haven't felt connected to him since coming back from the US. basically... he is too much there when i need him to back off and when i really really really need him he is nowhere to be found. everybody has been like that for me in my life. but now... i dunno... i'm just finding that i need him less. not quite sure why. but that makes it mostly okay.
we haven't officially called it quits yet, though. so that is another step again. i guess i do feel anxious about that. even though i haven't emotionally connected to him in months. perhaps even years now. i forget. lost track of the timeline of my life years ago.
all i really care about is lifting, these days. lifting... might get cut from doing my phd sometime soon... might get off my *ss and write it up. i don't know. have made a few gestures... i don't know.
i don't know anymore. lifting makes me happy, though. i wish i found it years ago.
miss you dinah. but not too bad. don't know how to explain. its like you never left. i don't know.
i hope you feel better soon.
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