Posted by B2chica on April 6, 2009, at 15:37:53
In reply to Re: i'm all closed up » B2chica, posted by antigua3 on April 6, 2009, at 14:30:55
thanks a. ,
sometimes if forget how wise you are.i try to read a bit here or there. but with no support i'm afraid of being triggered. and part of me is just rejecting help (and i know i get that here...)
but if i talk about what i remembered it effects another family member, one that i love dearly and right now i just can't change that view of him. i need what i have. i don't want anyone demonizing him. its an absolute no. mostly since i have no one else in my entire family that is worth it.
she is nice about letting me email her. but i just can't.
...YES i like what you said about it seeming like Years between sessions. i just miss the days that i was seeing old T- 2-3 times.week. :(
i think that's where i get stopped up, i have past AND present issues that i feel need addressing. so what do i do? address nothing.
>>Maybe it's not that you just have to accept that your husband responds the way he does. Maybe you just have to decide that you're not going to respond the same way to him. I learned that when I refused to argue, things changed a lot. It put the problem back on him, instead of me trying to fix it for him. But that could just be me, so pls ignore if it's stupid.
NOTHING about that sounds stupid. i think that's Exactly right. its the Way i respond that i need to change.
and lately i too am trying to dive head first into the mama thing. infact sometimes i think..i worried that as Much as i love this incredible being that i will in a way depend on "being her mama" to much, in that i will ignore all the rest going on. and when the time comes and she becomes teen, or moves to college...etc. that i will then explode/implode/fall apart in a million pieces. so i keep monitoring myself.
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i do forget what great feedback i get here sometimes.
i guess i'm getting a little of my teen inside coming out with this "i'm NOT gonna talk" that keeps bounding forward.i'll see what comes tomorrow.
here's a song for you'all
here's kinda where i'm at these days...just worn out.
Love this song.
...and just so happened the video kinda fits a little better than i expected, i just tried to find the first youtube video of this song...kinda funny.
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