Posted by stellabystarlight on October 20, 2008, at 19:53:35
In reply to Re: Thanks for sharing... » stellabystarlight, posted by Morgan79 on October 20, 2008, at 19:23:33
> I need to talk to him, and we have to talk about who we are to one one another. He has sent me five text messages today, he wants to move away from all this, and get a job somewhere else.
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> What was I thinking when we were playing house? I should have known he would lose everything, but that wouldn't matter to me. But he would resent me in the end. He says he wouldn't, but I know he would. It would be natural, he spent years in getting advanced degrees so I can take it all away?
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> I don't know what to think. My mind is not clear, and I don't trust anyone anymore. I don't even want to be a t anymore. My goal in life was to help children who are "at risk." I can't even help myself, so how can I help children?
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> ~MorganYou're being too hard on yourself. Love...especially the romantic love is not rational...transference or real (it feels the same.) So he wants to start a new life with you? I've heard the same from a man. It was wonderful to hear, but also terrifying at the same time. I have to ask, is there any chance that what you're really fearing is that you don't really love him? Maybe that's why you fear his "resentment in the end?" Just have to ask?
It is confusing. You've been in and are in an intense confusing relationship. You should at least give yourself a break for trying to do something about it, Morgan. You're going to be a better helper to children for having experienced these painful, difficult situations. You're just trying to sort it out...
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