Posted by lemonaide on October 1, 2008, at 12:27:55
Is it because my T is sick and I have to leave him, that it is making me even angrier at my first T? I am not angry at my T who is sick, but I feel a loss. He hasn't called me this week to even talk to me, to find out why I canceled my session. I called him on last Thurs and left a message if he he was okay with me after our session. Well he called back later that day and I wasn't at home. But he hasn't called since, does he even know I am gone? Does he even care or I wonder if he is glad to be rid of me? Does he even remember that I am a client?
All I know is that I have this intense anger at my old T. I am pissed off at his cocky ways. I am angry what he did to me, the way he hurt me. So I got some justice or some would say revenge. He has confidentiality, but I don't, I can say he was my T who was unethical, I can write it in my blog, I can write it on doctor's reviews. He can't do anything against it or even say who I am , because it is all true, so I hope he feels embarrassed from it all. Why does this make me feel so satisfied. Am I becoming my mother? Am I sick person who has to hurt someone who hurt me first? Why can't i just brush it off my shoulder and not care anymore?
poster:lemonaide
thread:855089
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