Posted by fleeting flutterby on September 11, 2008, at 18:55:05
In reply to mandy » fleeting flutterby, posted by lucie lu on September 11, 2008, at 18:03:24
Oh dear Sassy-- here I am again...... yikes..... feel I must answer Lucie and am hoping you will not mind me replying here.....
> Hi Mandy,
>
> I too was impressed at your response, which Racer framed so beautifully in her post. The big secret (well, probably not really a secret) is that most of us are pretty insecure.<<---Thank you. and-- what? none of you seem at all insecure to me! You all seem so strong and know what is what.
>>I loved what muffled said in a thread yesterday that she gets a little thrill of good feeling when her name is mentioned - but she accepts that often it just may not be. Thats pretty much how it is. But given some deep-down insecurity (and I challenge Racer for the poster-child title) , if that happens when you're at a low point and buttons get pushed, its so easy to return a four-alarm response.<<
---- Well expressing it was a first for me-- used to be I'd just disappear. Those that know me from the "other" site probably wouldn't believe that was me that posted. Something just told me I wasn't going to die if I said how I felt-- and look at that-- I'm still here! I didn't die and the whole world doesn't hate me. gee-- it's really something.
>> It happened to me about a month ago, something trivial, bad week, issues and well, the strength of my reaction completely caught me by surprise. I also owed apologies, and the whole thing embarrassed the h*ll out of me. But you know, in the end, I got to know some people better, and it opened up a great thread that helped me talk about deep childhood fears of being invisible.<<
--Seems it was a learning experience for you too. Oh yes, I so relate to those fears of being invisible-- people not listening to me caused me to be repeatedly abused as a child-- I told adults but they ignored me.
>> Im not saying it was a good thing to do ;) but just that people here can be really understanding and helpful given the opportunity.<<
--- I agree, people here can sure be helpful and understanding. phew-- guess I picked a good place to "pop out" of my shell(or maybe it's -cocoon- in my case).
> Hope to hear lots more from you!
>
> Best, Lucie
>--- Thank you so much. your kindness and compassion are much appreciated.
flutterby-mandy
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