Posted by Amanda29 on August 15, 2008, at 16:30:06
In reply to Re: The truth has come out. » Amanda29, posted by rskontos on August 15, 2008, at 12:18:46
You know something that bothers me now, is that my T want's me to meet new people and make new friends and I think that is a good idea but I don't make friends easily. The thought of making new friends scares me. I have been put down and shunned as a person, and I don't want to be rejected again.
I am so paranoid of crossing boundaries with people and I have this cousin who used to be a counselor and she wants to hang out with me and I w ant to be able to talk to her and tell her things that have been going on with me but I feel like #1. I am crossing a boundary by calling her and #2. that if I start talking and tell her too much she will get turned off and not want to know any more info. Granted she is my cousin, but she has never known that much about me.
I called my office manager after work and she was still at the office and I was talking to her and asked her if I was crossing a boundary by talking to her...
I said the same thing with another friend. I just feel like I cannot talk to anyone anymore. I feel the same way about my T just ebacause he told me he ingores my drama...and to me, he should help me deal with it. My life is one big drama..and I need help with dealing with it...it was my reason for entering into therapy.
I am just scared that I have done too much damage ...I know I could do worse and He says he isnt going to terminate me, but what I am scared of now...is of not being able to STOP my behaviors that are at this moment messing me up.
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