Posted by Amanda29 on August 2, 2008, at 18:50:49
In reply to Re: lying to therapist., posted by antigua3 on August 2, 2008, at 18:36:05
Thank you. The thing is the Vicodin did NOTHING for me. Which is GOOD. I am just going to stick with this white lie and let it go. Because I told him that they were no longer in my posession and that I got rid of the medication...so technically I did get rid of it. (I still have the valium)but I havent taken it. I am starting on Seoroquel XR for anxiety..(it just got approved for the use of anxiety) so I will start that Monday night and my hope is that it will calm me down to where I won't be so anxiout all the time and I won't care as much. That is my goal.
When I decided that I Wasnt going to do a support group, my therapist said it was OK that support groups werent the answer for everyone..and he said that if I found myself using again I would tell him and he would help get me into some kind of group. (so ..yeah, if I told him I would be forced into a group).
I think groups are good...dont get me wrong..I just dont want any part in them. IF that makes sense.
I am going to be ok...I just need to breathe and get over my anxiety which ..living with severe anxiety and not having medication to control it..is extremely hard. I have been without since September and I have done well until now...my sister just got a bottle of Ativan for anxiety and Ativan was the first medication that I abused..and I am jealous of that..and she is afraid to use them so they are just sitting there...anyway, I started craving them and it has just gone from there.
I need to know from my therapist that he understands where I am coming from and that he understands what it feels like to crave something or to feel numb...he makes me feel like I am going to hell for having these feelings. At the same time he does care about me.
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