Posted by Suedehead on August 1, 2008, at 18:55:57
In reply to talking about your childhood in therapy, posted by raisinb on August 1, 2008, at 15:54:10
I've noticed that I feel certain things about my childhood *now*, looking back on it, that I don't recall having felt at the time, and that is unsettling to me. Mainly, I don't remember feeling particularly bad as a child, or being unhappy with the way my parents related to me, but now, when I allow myself to think and talk about my childhood in therapy, I'm often filled with hostility toward them over various things. A lot of the conversations I have with my T about my parents involve my disclosing something about the way they handled some situation, followed by his expressing disapproval of their behavior and sympathy/concern for me (both as a child and in my present state). Then, I feel a little shocked as the realization that my parents really weren't perfect sets in. But this is followed by an enormous feeling of guilt, and I usually have to qualify everything we've just talked about with something like, "But my parents loved me, really! They didn't mean it! I don't want to give you the wrong impression about them." It's annoying.
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