Posted by rskontos on February 3, 2008, at 11:41:27
In reply to head banging, posted by Maxime on February 2, 2008, at 18:59:27
Maxine,
I am not sure if this advice will help and I am no expert on depression or SI. But my previous therapist did give me some advice in terms of depression that I thought helped. I think and I could be wrong, be I think the SI is to re-affirm you are feeling as the depression probably makes you feel flat or numb or not all together here. And from what I understand SI makes you feel again. Again, I might have it wrong. If you could replace the SI with some other form, not head banging, but find a tv show, which is what I did.. I watch this one show for hours a day every day. And I felt really bad about it too. Now obviously this is not good to watch tv for 4 hours up to 9 or 10 hours a day but I did. I did not get dress, do anything around the house etc. I watch this one show. And I found I could watch it on the internet, I did. But it is I think better than SI. Maybe like Racer says replace SI with something less harmful but that might help what your mind is trying to do to help you feel less depressed. Anyway, what the therapist said about the tv show is there will come a day when you won't need it. And she is right. I don't watch is any more. And it took a while. Whatever I needed out that show I finally got. I watched that series entirely thur its reruns twice. But I am done. I still like the show. I will re-watch the episodes I like. Some I don't particularly care for. My therapist said there is something about it you need, it is ok. Her ok was what I needed for some reason.
Now we can't give you the ok for SI. It does give you something. A feeling of being on earth, or something. But you need to get something else to give that to you. Please. I don't post much to you but that isn't because I don't read your threads or posts. i do. I just dont often feel I can tell you much more than the others have. And maybe today I can't either. Today maybe all I can do is tell you you are valued. You matter. And you need to matter to you....rsk
dont harm that beautiful head any longer...
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