Posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 17:52:53
In reply to Re: DESCRIBING how a DD FEELS..... » muffled, posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 15:14:48
I am reading and reading and thinking and thinking and I sure appreciate all input and of course kind words.
I have MORE thots, or questions.
I don't cry. I HAVE cried. Like when my dog died. But I cannot cry at my own sadness. I have felt like I COULD cry, I have all the right correspondiong physical sensations...but it gets shut down. I dunno how or why. I sometimes kinda wish I could just cry. But I not allowed.
Anybody else like that?Also I wonder if some of my peeps can be depressed and some not? Or is it one and all?
Its hard to know what I feel, when sometimes I am feeling more than one thing, and they don't make sense together, the feelings.I just am trying very very hard to 'stay present' as my T calls it, for my family.
I need meds but its hard to get Dr. appt.
I guess mebbe i should just take xanax 3x/day need it or not? Its all I got right now. I should take it today, but I just don't.
Part of me is really juast fine.
Part of me is SO NOT.
I proly should proly consciously access the 'fine' part and stick with it. My only concern is that in the past if I do that too long, the others seem to get mad, and I end up blowing out dangerously.I hate holidays.
I just wish it was over.You babblers all are great.
Sorry not individ replies.
Partly cuz I tense.
Partly cuz kids are home and can't sit at computer for long.
Someboddy really riled up inside and I dunno why, I reckon I'll xanax them and see how THAT goes.
Later gator as another babbler said to me!
In awhile crocodile!
M
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