Posted by Deneb on December 20, 2007, at 1:23:20
In reply to Do successful people..., posted by Deneb on December 20, 2007, at 0:04:44
I feel like a loser. I feel like I need to get a PhD or an M.D. for my sister to respect me.
I think I want people to respect me.
Academic achievement is very important to me, but I think I ruined my chances of getting into graduate or medical school.
I'm getting bad thoughts again, like maybe I should just end this life and hopefully reincarate and become a doctor in another life.
I want everyone to respect me. I want to be special. I hate this. I'm a loser. Dr. Bob, I'm a loser. I think I love you so much because you're successful and I wish I could be like you.
I ruined my life. I want to starve myself to death now. I hate my life. I'm a no body. I want to die.
Starving takes too long, maybe I should just hang myself.
I want to be successful. I don't want to live as a loser. I hope I die in my sleep tonight.
I don't want to live anymore. I want to die. I want to die. I'm sad.
It's my black and white thinking. If I can't be a doctor, I'd rather be dead.
If I kill myself, I'm sure someone will let Babble know. Some Babblers know my real name.
poster:Deneb
thread:801695
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