Posted by LadyBug on October 5, 2007, at 11:16:12
I saw my T on Tues. this week. I had so much to talk about with her and my jaw got tired!! Needless to say I didn't feel any real connection from her that I usually get. I missed that. I'm going through so much in my life right now that therapy is important and one of the things that keeps me going day after day.
My T doesn't allow e-mail. She does't mind me leaving her a voice mail and she'll return my calls right away. We had talked about divorce and religion and how it affects the kids. I talked about how it has affected me too. I feel betrayed in some ways because of the council I was given by my leader concerning my spouse and his issues. I was told I should save him. (From his addictions etc.) I don't think so. I'm not trying to make this into a religion based post by any means. What I'm getting at is I had read an interesting article in a newspaper about kids, divorce and religion and the affects it has on how kids see God after the divorce. I thought it was really good and she asked which paper I had read it from. I told her. On Wed. the next day after our session, I decided to e-mail the article to her. Then I called and gave her a heads up of what I'd done and hoped that she wouldn't kill me for sending her an e-mail. She needs to get in the day of technology and realize it's the way people communicate! But she hasn't done that yet. But her e-mail address is on line at a sight she is affiliated with. I told her I got her e-mail address on line. There's not much she can do to me for finding it on line. It's public info in my eyes.
She called and left me a message and told me she wouldn't kill me but that we'd talk about it like we always do. The thing is, I don't want to talk about it with her. I have far too many stressful things going on in my life to worry about this. I do think I broke a boundary and in the way that I did, I forced it on her. If she read the e-mail, it was on "HER" time, not at work and to me that's an invasion of her privacy. I know what I did was a violation, but I think I did it because it was an excuse to feel connected to her because when I left, I wasn't feeling it and I needed it. Now what? I don't think she's mad at me but I don't want to talk about it! Oh man, why do I do these things when I know better.
Do any of you do things when you know it's breaking a boundary with your T?????? I'm stressing over it. Not the first time for me to break a boundary. And she had no say in it. Whew..........
LadyBug
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