Posted by twinleaf on October 4, 2007, at 0:05:49
In reply to RE: Feeling so horrible; maybe T not good, posted by RealMe on October 3, 2007, at 23:31:51
Oh, RealMe, this is such a tough situation to be in. Just looking on from the outside, it would seem so reasonable for you to be getting angry. Isn't it an important step on your road to health to focus ALL your feelings- whether love, fear, anger- on your therapist? It would be so much worse to feel detached and indifferent. It might hurt less, but you wouldn't get anywhere. And he DID say he would stay with you through the good times and the hard ones. Until this recent situation, it seemed as though you were developing a solid relationship with him, and were pleased to have him as your therapist. You had implied long-term plans with him-such as using the couch- and you definitely seemed to have interest and a solid commitment from him.
This will probably be the hardest thing you'll ever do, but do try to stay with him and work through it, Try to let him know he has a commitment to the work from you, also. Maybe don't talk about other therapists or leaving right now. The big question is: why are you so angry? My answer, for me, would be fear of abandonment. I don't know if that would be yours, but there is some powerful reason coming to the fore. You've got a chance to work through it with him. You could just walk in and say you are committed to your work with him, and you'd like to understand more about what's making you so angry, with the goal of feeling less angry, and more secure and attached. I know this is easy to say, and VERY hard to do!
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