Posted by rskontos on October 3, 2007, at 11:55:08
In reply to its getting worse, posted by B2chica on October 3, 2007, at 11:12:48
B2, I hear you I am there to I got some of the most distrubing news last night and it makes me happy my mother is dead. I have never felt that way until now.
I am happy she can't affect me ever again I am glad she is dead. I can't forgive her or my stinking grandparents for not getting me out of that shithole or my father but we can't let all these bad feelings rob us. Ok I am trying and you need to try with me. I am crying and sometimes I just sit here and don't feel a thing. I have never bonded to anything and as bad as it sounds not even to my babies. I love them but even now they can hurt me. I try to be a good mom but good as I can be maybe it won't be enough....so I know where you are believe me but please if I try will you......I can't find a T yet. My friend wants be to call my other one but I am mad at her, I haven't bonded to her either. People can be such sh*theads. But we can support each other. My sister just let that old blank y blank be but I can't I lived in it longer and I dissociate worse than she does.I am so sorry you feel so bad. I wish we all could go away to a new place where we were normal whatever that is. But we can't so we must help each other take baby steps to being whole in whatever manner we can be. Whatever shape that is to us. We must create it for ourselves because utlimately only we can. Right?!?!?!?!?! Are you ok. Please let me know...........YOu were doing so ok yesterday. Because some days I think ok might be alright too.
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