Posted by OzLand on August 10, 2007, at 22:17:07
In reply to Re: Therapist is not upset with me, but (triggerl » OzLand, posted by gardenergirl on August 10, 2007, at 21:54:57
Thanks gg; my therapist is an expert in eating disorders as well as has expertise in trauma and abuse. So, yes he knows what he is doing. I just never told him about eating disorder. Evan as a patient at Menningers I never told them, and they never knew. I was a depressed f*tso when I went there as a patient, and so when I lost weight, it seemed like a good thing. As best I could I did not starve myself or over exercise, and so it did not get out of control then. I got to a decent weight and stayed there until around 2001 when I started feeling depresed and started to become f*tso again. I am overweight but not as bad as it would seem to others. To me I am horrible looking. So, I will wait to try proper dieting until when as my therapist says I am more emotionally stable. I wonder if he thinks I should add any meds. We didn;t get to that. Before he wanted to add Lithium to the Parnate he prescribed and that I take to help me stabilize my mood. I hate more meds as I am on a bootload of meds for physical stuff. Thanks.
Glad to hear you have a good therapist too. I am really afraid of what if I start feeling like I would like to have sex with him. He is good looking and caring and has a sense of humor. He mentioned that one time when I first starting seeing him, and I forget the context now, but I freaked at the prospect of ever saying that to him. Actually it has already happened, and I can't bring myself to say, "Hey guess what I have had sexual thoughts about you." I know exactly where that would lead; back to the sexual abuse stuff and how sex became just sex and no intimcacy. Oh now I remember, he said something about us becoming very intimate before we are done, meaning in a therapeutic way, and I freaked even though I knew what he meant, and then he brought up the sexual stuff, and I freaked again. Maybe I can tell him next Tuesday. As far as he is concerned, our relationship is hugely important to my healing. I know he is right too.
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