Posted by Wittgenstein on May 9, 2007, at 8:13:06
Hello all,
I'm back. I posted some weeks ago while in my search for therapy. A lot has happened since then - I had a horrific experience with the first therapist, who I saw just once, and took about a week to recover (although I can laugh at it now - it would make a good comedy sketch).
Anyway, I decided to seek a private therapist and by chance came across the person I am seeing now - I feel very lucky - he was able to see me straight away, insists on charging me a low fee (although I still haven't agreed to this, and didn't ask for it in the first place - would rather just pay the normal fee). He is a psychoanalyst/dynamic therapist, a retired professor, and well-known in this country - he has written several therapy books (I hadn't realised this until after I'd first seen him and ran a search of him on Google) - actually it's a bit intimidating. My first assignment was to write an account of my life in 5 pages - I failed miserably and wrote over 25 pages without reaching the age of 6 (!!) - I felt guilty to send it to him and insisted he shouldn't read it in his own time, but he did.
I guess I just wanted to share in my news - the last weeks have been difficult and finally there is hope - I don't know what would have happened had this not come. Things can turn around, so never give up.
One thing though. He doesn't have tissues in his room - or they are not on show (I'm sure he does have tissues). Actually the presence of a big box of Kleenex would probably make me feel that there was an 'expectation' but that said, with no tissues in sight I'm more scared to cry and what will happen.
I find myself fighting to hold back tears, and hoping he would change the subject - I almost never cry in front of others anyway, so it won't be easy - how did your therapists respond when you first cried in front of them?
Witti
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