Posted by gazo on March 31, 2007, at 17:32:51
In reply to Gazo*triggers* » gazo, posted by Iwillsurvive on March 31, 2007, at 13:01:25
i know..oh boy do i know. i know it's dangerous. it scares me that it happened. i didn't even give it a thought until i was half way home and i realised i was obviously weaving. what if i had passed out on the way home?
i'm not sure how it all happened, i mean i remember everything but there wasn't a clear point where i coulda/shoulda stopped. i was with people most of the night. shoulda got a cab home.
i don't want to do any of those things. i lived all of that once. i know i don't need to use that as acoping mechanism. i don't understand what happened to me. i have to put a stop to it right now, or i am just going to have more issues to have to deal with.
that's it. one drink limit on social occasions. i am too vulnerable to have more than that.
i guess it'll be tested tonight. i promised a dear friend i'd show up at this bash she's having. i have to make an appearnce. i'm picking up a friend there to come here. my plan to avoid getting sucked into the moment is to not go until really late. i won't be drinking at all tonight. i'll have people to walk with me as well.
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